Its · all · about · me.....

It's been a long time. lets see where to start.

Steve and I are still dating. I love him so much and he means so much to me. I love his family. These days they seem like my family. Steve and I seem to connect on all levels. Spiritually he is a huge impact. I've never known to love like this. I see him everyday, pretty much and a day without him by my side is almost painful.But bearable. I know he needs his space, but its almost hard. Its wierd;I feel so comfortable with him, much like i would with a best friend. Most people don't get to feel this, I almost pity them. To love like i do is a gift.

Mike and I aren't talking, I'm liking it this way. Makes me wonder if he ever really cared about me. Steve has shed light on many things. I don't think he ever really loved me. Was I just a toy?Pathetic.

I've made lots of friends through Steve his friends are mine. I love them all to death.

I'll update more lata.

Loves,
April

This is true, i feel this way too.

When I first called you, I was afraid to meet you.
When I first met you, I was afraid to kiss you
When I first kissed you, I was afraid to love you
But now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.

Girl:Do I ever cross you're mind?
Boy:No
Girl:Do you like me?
Boy:No
Girl:Do you want me?
Boy:No
Girl:Would you cry if I left?
Boy:No
Girl:Would you live for me?
Boy:No
Girl:Would you do anything for me?
Boy:No way
Girl:What would you choose you're life or me?
Boy:My life

Girl runs away and guy stops her and says: The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on it.The reason I don't like you is because I love you.The reason why I don't want you is because I need you. The reason why I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die for you. The reason I am not willing to do anything for you, is because I would do everything for you.The reason I choose my life is because you are my life.

Its been awhile, i know. I've been crazy busy. I've had exams, which went well. Then,I had to work. I was asked by his honour to come back to governement house to work. So of course i accepted, and my wages have been raised. On wensday, i had prom. i was amazing! I had a great time. I went with my boyfriend, Steve. We danced the night away... litterally.At prom all the teachers, gave me hugs. It was cute. The we went back to my place to chill afterwards and watched underworld evolution. To all y'all who know me, i am well known for my love of vampires. My parents, have loosened up opn me finally, so i more room to breathe. Thank god. Last night i went to my brother's grad. Kinda boring. I missed seeing him get his diploma, because of work, but, i mean what can you do eh? My grad is on tuesday, and i've got the jitters. i'm probably gonna cry. Ikky. Anyways,
Bye all!
- A

Sorry I haven't written for long, i've been preety busy. Alot has happened in the past bit. I didn't die. Thank god. I was accepted into UPEI's science program. *does a dance* I just got a job at the new grocery store downtown (clover farm) as a cashier. AND!!! I got a letter from parliment. They want to interview me for patliment's interpreter. BONUS! i'm really exicited about it.
last night I went out with Laurie and Steve. We walked around downtown for a bit. It was Great! Laur and I had a great time. We spent most of the night groaping each other. For no reason in particular, it was just fun doing so. I bought Laurie a ring for her birthday at wild impulse, she loved it. LOL but then again laur is IMPULSIVE.LOL. Something wierd happened tonight. I saw Mike. But the ironic thing about this, is exactly a year ago I went to his place and watched Star Wars. But I can't get his expression out of my face. I don't understand it. oh well, ironic eh?
Anyways i'm off ciao huns!
April

Name: April
Nicknames: Ape and kalila
Birthplace: QEH
Current Location: Charlottetown, PEI
Hair Color: Brown
Eye Color: brown
Height: 5.9"
Weight:: 100-110 llb (loosing more weight, by accident, its driving me crazy)
Tatoos?: No, not unless thier fake
Piercings?: my ears
Overused Phrase: Anyways...

--Your--
Bedtime:: around 9 or 10
Best Physical Feature: My legs
Most Embarassing Moment: When I kissed my crush in the ear (gr.6)
Most Missed Memory: Running around the house naked (i was 3)
First Thought When You Wake Up: I want to sleep ina bit more.
Weakness:Caring too much. (i still care)
Best Friends: It used to be cole, but what the hell happened there?
Goal For The Year: kick ass, and up my self esteem
Greatest Fears: that someone i love will die.

--This Or That--
Pepsi or Coke...: Coke!!!
McDonalds or Burger King...: Neither (grease!)
Hot Tea or Ice Tea...: Hot tea
Chocolate or Vanilla...: Chocolate. (obvious reasons)
Water or Milk...: Water
Coffee or Hot Chocolate...: Hot chocolate
Hugs or Kisses...: Kisses
Cats or Dogs...: Dogs
Summer or Winter...: Summer
Scary Movies or Romantic Comedies...: Romantic Comedies
Love or Money...: Love
Green Grapes or Purple Grapes...: purple

--Lover--
Preferred Eye Color: Brown
Preferred Hair Color: Brown
Short Hair or Long Hair...: i usually go for medium, or short-medium
Preferred Height: My hight or taller
Preferred Weight: whatever ( i don't care)
Looks or Personality...: Personality
Hot or Cute...: cute
Skinny...Muscular...Fat...: whatever

--Favs--
Number: 17
Food: fajitas
Type of Music: Upbeat
Candy: Gummies!!!
Colour: Red or Black
Animal: dogs or Horses
Drink: Coke and cream soda (hot mix)
Body Part on the Opposite Sex: Eyes or shoulders
Movie: Phantom of the opera
Past Time: Living the best i can

--Have You Ever--
Drank?: No
Smoked?: No, and never will.
Been Beaten Up?: yes
Bullied Someone?: never
Skinny Dipped?: no
Played Spin The Bottle or 7 Minutes In Heaven?: Yes (mike)
Toliet Papered Someones House?: no
Played Poker with Money?: No
Gone Swimming In A White T-Shirt?: no
Been Tickled So Bad That You Cried?: Yes
Been Tickled So Bad That You Couldnt Talk?: Yes
Liked Someone And Not Told Them How You Felt?: Yes
Went Camping?: Yes
Used The Restroom On A Tree?: no, but does bushes count?
Had A Crush On Your Brother/Sister's Friend?: yes
Had A Crush On Your Friend's Brother/Sister?: yes
Walked In The Rain W/out An Umbrella?: Yes (i love it)
Danced In The Rain?: Yes
Told A Joke And Nobody Thought It was Funny?: Yeah
Been On Stage?: Yes
Worn Clothes Your Mom Didnt Approve Of?: Yes
Been To A Nude Beach?: No
Cursed In Church?: yes ( stubbed my toe and yelled fuck in the basillica)
Been Called A Whore/Slut For Kissing Someone?: Yes
Burnt Yourself?: Yes
Been Dumped?: Yes
Dumped Someone?: Yes
Been In Love?: Yes, twice
Been Hit On [by] Someone Old[er]?: Yes
Wanted To Be A Model?: yes
Wanted To Be In The Olmpics?: No
Bought Lottery Tickets?: nope
Made Out In A Car?: Yes ( infront of his family)LOL
Cried During A Movie?: yes (troy)
Wanted Something You Couldnt Have?: Yes
Made Love On The Beach?: nope ( i want to though)
Shoplifted?: yes ( like 1 peice of candy)
Seen Someone Shoplift?: no
Hung Up On Someone?: Yes
Yelled At Your Pet?: no
Gotten Seasick?: Nope
Tried To Strip When Drunk?: No
Bought A Thong Cuz The Cashier Was Hot?: No
Stalked Someone?: yes.
Had A Stalker?: yes
Played A Prank On Someone And Scared Them?: No
Been Embarrassed By Someone In Your Family?: Yes
Felt Bad About Eating Meat?: yes
Protested?: Yes
Been To An Island?: Yes
Ate Cuz You Had Nothing Better To Do?: Yes
Screamed In A Library?: no
Made Out W/ A Stranger?: Nope
Made Out W/ Someone Who Wasnt Single?: No
Wished A Part Of You Was Different?: yes
Talked To A Complete Stranger?: Yes
Been Sunburned So Bad You Blistered?: no
Kicked A Guy In The Nuts?: Yes ( and loved it)
Threw Up In School?: no
Recieved A Love Letter That Wasnt Signed?: nope
Wore Something You Hated?: yeah
Wore Something To Match Someone?: No
Been To A Luau?: No
Cursed Infront Of Your Parents?: Yes
Been On TV?: Yes
Been Outta The Country?: yes
Been Honked At While Walking Down The Sidewalk?: Yes
Won A Pool Game?: no
Went To A Party Where You Were The Only Sober One?: no
Went To School/ Work Drunk?: No
Dieted?: no
Had An Eating Disorder?: nope
Cheated On Your Other?: yes
Been Cheated On?: no
Been Paid To Date Someone?: No
Dated Someone That Was Paid or Dared To Date You?: Nope
Tanned Topless?: yes
Been Strip Searched?: No (sounds like fun)
Been On A Plane?: yes
Been On A Cruise?: No
Been Pantsed In Public?: Yes (bobby)
Thrown Your Shoe At Someone?: Yes
Broke Someone's Heart?: Yes, and I still regret it.
Sung In The Shower?: Yes
Bought Something Way To Expensive?: Yes
Done Something Stupid And Laughed At Yourself?: Yes
Been Walked In On While You Were Dressing?: Yes
Been Walked In On While Showering?: yes
Ran Out Of A Movie Theater because You Got Scared?: No
Been Kicked Out Of A Mall/ Store?: No
Been Kicked Out Of A GoCart Place Cuz You Wrecked The Go Cart?: No
Been In Detention?: Yes
Fell Off A Roof?: No
Pretended You Were Scared So You Could Cuddle With Someone?: sadly,yes
Been In A crash?: no
crashed So You Wouldnt Hit An Animal?: no
Made Yourself Puke So You Wouldnt Have To Go To School?: No
Threatened Someone With A Water Gun?: No
Been Shot?: No
Had A Water Gun War?: yes
Been Arrested?: No

--Randoms--
Regret Something You Did In The Past?: Yes
Country You Wanna Visit: Italy and Rome
Way You Want to Die: In love
Like Thunderstorms?: Loud, but i'd like them better if i wasn't alone
Get Along With Your Parents?: No, I don't.
Are You A Health Freak?: yes
You Think your Attractive?: No
Do You Believe In Yourself?: yes
Wanna Get Married?: not right now,but in time yes
Wanna Go To College?: No, not a college. University, yes,
Shower Daily?: Yes (bath)
Want Kids?: Yes
Do you Hate Anyone?: No, but if I ever do they'll deserve it
Can You Unwrap A Starburst With Your Tongue?: No
Do You Think You Can Sing?: Yes
Can You Open You Eyes Underwater?: no
Eat Whatever And Not Worry?: sure
Can You Whistle?: no
Can You Walk In High Heels?: yes
Do You Sleep With The Light On?: no
Do You Like Super Spicy Foods?: Nope.
Can You Multitask?: Yes
Touch Your Nose With Your Tongue?: yes
Can You Fit In Your Locker?: yes actually.
Do You Spit?: No
Can You Taste The Difference Between Pepsi And Coke?: Yes
If You Could Wish for Anything...What Would You Wish for?: To make everyone happy
What Kind Of Perfume Or Colone Do You Wear?: Body shop, and roots
What Kind Of Soap Do You Use?: Something Steve gave me
What's Your Favorite Scent?: Um, i don't know, people i meet and loose
Would You Choose To Live Forever If You Could?: Yes.

Sorry its taken forever to write again. I'm fine and well, that horrible ended smoothly. Thank goodness.

I wanted to share a poem with you that is quite cute.

"He's teaching her arithmetic,
he said it was his mission
He kissed her once , he kissed her twice and" said, now that's addition and as he
added smack by smack in silent satisfaction she sweetly gave the kissed back and
said now that subtraction

Then he kissed her and she kissed him and without explanation and
both together smiled and said "that's multiplication" and then dad appeared
upon the scene and made a quick decision he kicked that kid three blocks
away and said , now that long division"

By Dan Clark

Have you ever feared the life might be over for you soon? It might have never happened to you. My school,has found something. A death threat. Two actually. They said; "11 will die, including myself on March the 14th". Calubine all over again? I'm scared. I don't want to die. I have so much I want to do before I die. For example, i want to fall in love, get married, have kids and raise them. I even plan on having a very original wedding. A night wedding it will happen in the dark, with candels down the aisle, on the beach... Then we will have the reception the following morning, a brunch. Original eh? I want to experience that. Not to mention if i die on March the 14th, I won't go to prom, i'll never walk into university or anything. I will never have the chance to say good bye, or talk to anyone about things we fought about. Unresolved conflict. What about the situation with Mike? I know what happened, but i know he hates me like i do him, but i don't really hate him... i'm just hurt. But i will never fix that. An open wound i will doe with. Not that its really importent, but when i lay dying i don't want to feel like i haven't done all i want to in this life.
There's a saying i heard. "I want to know there's more to this life, and i can't know that if they kill you" this is from a romance movie. If i die, how will i know if there was truly more to this life? I won't.
But i will walk through those doors on the 14th, i will watch my back and pray for a safe day. Its not my time. I'm not ready. I want to love. I want to feel. I want eat, drink and live life. Why now? Why me?
But if this is truly the end my friends, then good bye, good luck and have a nice life, live it for me. *hugs* i will never forget, and i hope to see you on the other side.

You are young, naive Christine Daee. You are

beautiful and talented. And on the plus side

you have two men fighting over you! It's a

shame you are so caught up in mourning your

dead father to notice.


Which Phantom of the Opera character are you from ALW's Phantom of the Opera movie? (not finished)
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YOU KNOW YOUR PHANTOM!!!! YOU LIKE THAT MOVIE TOO?


HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA??? *PICS*
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Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Charlie Bucket,

a boy from an impoverished family under the

shadow of a giant chocolate factory, wins a

candy bar contest and is given a tour, along

with four other children, of the amazing

factory run by the eccentric Willy Wonka and

his staff of Oompa-Loompas... You strike me

as a quite, shall I say...interesting person.


Tim Burton Movie?
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Wind Goddess


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Waiting long for love? Maybe you have been looking

in all the wrong places. Maybe youre too

caught up in a daydream? Maybe youre so

caught up in the daydream; you lost sight of

real people. STOP daydreaming. But dont loose

your dreams. These dreams are what told you

exactly what you wanted in a lover. So since

you now know what you want, GET out there and

find it. However, bear in mind that fairy

tale love is extremely rare. You may have to

take some bad with the good. Hey! No one is

perfect. But you can find the one for you!


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I guess I should write some seeing how, i haven't in quite a while. So what new with me? Well, i've been trying to become happier, and i have been. Which is great. On the 30th I will have been dating Steve for a month. he's really nice, and I hope everything works out. There's a Concert tonight, which Steve and a couple of my friends are going to. I would love to go, but i'm stuck here at home studing for My last exam math. BAH! math, its treating me horribly this yera. I just can't get it. I might have to take math again next semester, which will more then likely happen. Whether it's because I failed or i have to upgrade. I just hope it will be worth it. I sit here staring at the math in front of me and i'm like WTF... i don't get this. *freak out*. I got an MP3 for Chrismas, which is atotal godsend, because it's the best for relieveing stress and fear. I plan on moving this summer,I have had enough crap from my mom. I want to be able to breath, and nowthat i'm getting older its becoming harder to do. I'll probably end up going to UPEI next year, which won't bother me a great deal, mostly because I'll be moving a step closer to finding a career that i will be happy in. Not to mention I'll be like a 5 minute walk from the rural. Which will be great. It seems like this year that's where my friends are at. I went in once, and everybody's like OMG!!! APRIL!!!! *HUGS* It was great. A big surprise that awaited me there too was I saw Tasha, I didn't expect to get a hello from her... But i got a jump around freaking out hug/hugs. She's a crazy girl, but most definatly a friend. I've even picked up some of my brother's friends. JP ect. I'm goin to the Rural on monday after my math exam to see everybody. Which will be fun.
Anywhoo.. Ciao,
April

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Aha, you like the vampire. Dangerously attractive aren't they, don't you think so?